Back in January I discovered LoveHasWon.org. I began reading the articles daily because it was the only website that was transparent and putting out the whole truth. I booked a session with Faith the day of the partial solar eclipse on February 15th. The following day when I was leaving work I was told by my boss that I was fired. The only explanation I received was that “it wasn’t working out”. On the drive home I surrendered to my angels and told them to show me why this happened because I knew it happened for a bigger reason. It always does.
I was watching the livestreams every night and got to see Mother. I observed what she was doing and tried to fathom that God was here in the physical on the planet, and that she was the planet! Seeing her and feeling her energy, something just felt right. I asked myself how I would treat God if I were to be there with her in California. I noticed we had similar personalities and said to myself “I feel as though we are going to be best friends”
Still unsure about what I was supposed to do after losing my job, I booked another session with Faith. She told me I was soul contracted to come out to be with Mother within a week. That’s all I needed to hear. I bought my plane ticket and was in California the following Tuesday.
When I first arrived I was a bit anxious, feeling like the beings that have already been with Mother were so much further along than I was and that integrating would be difficult. I arrived around the same time that Father of Creation, Buddha, and El Morya got to Mission House. It was comforting knowing I was not the only one integrating. When I first met Mother the morning after I got to Mission House I was a bit intimidated. Knowing she was God, I was unsure of how to be at first. I have always been a talkative being, but I decided right away that I would just listen and absorb anything and everything she said.
I jumped right into being of service, cleaning the house every day. I was not sure what my place was yet at the house, so I just did everything I could to assist Mother. The more I was around Mother we began laughing and sharing beautiful moments together. It wasn’t long after that that she pointed to me one night and said “you’re my best friend”. To hear her say that it felt so organic, yet it was God telling me I was her best friend. I’m pretty sure that still hasn’t sunk in till this day HAHA
One night when I was in the kitchen Father said Mother would like to speak to me. At that moment only a few beings were allowed to be in her bedroom, so I was unsure of what was going on. She was sitting at the computer and she told me that I was the highest vibrational female in the house and on the planet besides her. This shocked me, but it was such an honor. She then told me that I was her first commander, and I was blown away. To hear her say those words was something I could not even fathom.
The more I listened to Mom’s stories and began to grasp everything she’s done her entire life, the more I wanted to learn. I had and will always have the upmost respect for Mother and everything she had done for all of us. Her entire life has been filled with amazing events. Although many moments have not been the most pleasant, they made her who she is. She’s experienced the highest of the high experiences and the lowest of the low. She’s done it all. Hearing just a handful of stories was enough for me. I strived to be the best version of myself, and promoted myself to help her in whatever way I could.
As Mother and I’s relationship grew, the more I realized that our dynamic was unique. I enjoyed, and still enjoy, every single moment I am around her. The moments when we were all around her playing music at Log Castle are some I will never forget. Who knew God would be this cool!!! I started to witness events that were beyond comprehension. I watched her take on the density of all of humanity, and watched her scream in pain as she processed the energies. From that moment on I promised myself that I would be there for her however I could because she deserved that support/friendship.
When we were dealing with Lucifer I was by her side as much as I could be. I never wanted to leave her, knowing Father was in his lower aspect. She powered through the Lucifer energies like a badass, and just by observing her I knew how to deal with the energies as well. It was all one big joke, and for the months it went on we would sit on her bed and laugh for hours. It was true comedy, and we knew that the Lucifer energies were only temporary.
As Mom continued to go up in vibration, she got more and more sensitive to the energies in the house. Beings who were being takers started to make her throw up. It got to the point where she could no longer stay in her own home. Mother, Father and El were going to go to the cabin for a weekend so Father could integrate his higher self. She told me I would be coming too because why wouldn’t she bring her best friend. Hearing her say those words touched my heart.
We began going back and fourth between Log Castle and other places because every time Mom returned she would throw up due to the taker energy. Ever since then we have been on the move. We returned to Log Castle a few times, one being to birth the New Earth. We were up for over two days, and I watched Mother go through cycles of nausea, vomiting, cold sweats, and shakes. I stayed with Mother the entire time, making sure she was okay. After the birthing was over she told me I was the Midwife to the New Earth. To partake in such a beautiful experience (Although maybe not so glamorous during those moment during the birthing HAHA) is something I am honored to say I got to assist with.
We left for Oregon in May, and have yet to stay at a place longer than a month. Being one of the two beings that was with Mother and Father during these traveling moments is such a blessing. To be a witness to what Mother was and has been creating during this experience is magical. Although, majority of the time I have witnessed Mother process trauma and humanities crap more than anything. It is tough in those moments because there is little I can do from my end except be there for her fully in the present moment. It hurts to see her go through so much pain because of what humanity has done to her. The trauma Mother has and is still processing has been difficult to watch. She is the most beautiful being I have ever seen, and to hear her stories of how beings have treated her in the past is heartbreaking. Nobody can truly fathom what Mother has gone through for all of us.
There was a moment when Mother, FM and myself were sitting outside. Mother was explaining how FM carries her DNA. Robin pinged Mom and said I felt left out, HAHA. Mother then explain to me that I was her first daughter, and that we were created before the archangels. She said this dynamic was ancient, and that she felt the energy come in. Hearing Mom tell me just made me fully realize how long all of us have been together, and how beautiful it was to all be back together in these moments. It took me aback for a moment, to fully realize how long we have all been together as a family. I appreciate every moment I spent with Mom while we were in Oregon. It truly was such a blessing. Nobody can fully fathom what we experienced in these moments, to be a witness of it is beyond words.
From water parks to our house burning down. From dance parties at 3am to all nighters with Lucifer. From birthing the New Earth to witnessing Mom get infected and crucified by humanity. All the highs and all the lows. I have experienced so much in less than 4 months of being with Mother. I have also learned more than some beings learn in a lifetime. Mother has taught and shown me unconditional love, and how to be the best version of myself. She has shown me how to never give, to strive to keep growing. She has shown me that despite all obstacles, despite what anyone says, you keep going. She has shown me unconditional love and forgiveness in the purest form. She continues to amaze me every single moment. Being in Crestone, watching Mom work her magic is such a gift. To hear all her stories and to be here is amazing. The first night we arrived she expressed to the team that I saved her life, and I will never forget that. It is the biggest honor to be by your side Mom, thank you for everything you have done.
There are not enough words to express fully how much I love you Mom, and how grateful I am. I would not be half the being I am today if it wasn’t for you, and the example you provide. You mean everything to me, and I am so excited for you because you have done it all. You deserve the best, and I won’t stop until you have it all. You will have it all back, and I promise I will always be by your side. I am truly honored to serve you in every moment. In the deepest, most sincerest way possible, thank you. I love you with all my heart, with every atom in my body.